I already was a dnd fan so I understood how character creation worked but still spent a good one and a half hour in the character creator. This is something I enjoy though.
YEP it is just great. There is still so many things to look foward to even though the game is 21 year old thanks to the wonderfull modding community and openmw. I just love it so much. Also on an unrelated note I love how tightly knit together morrowind community is, I got to interract with some amazing people and incredibly talented modders and you can tell that everything about the morrowind modding comes from a place of love and passion for the game and the community and I am just so glad to be a part of it.
Maybe lay off video games for a while till you manage to accumulate a level of willpower that lets you cobtroll yourself easier while gaming. At your situation professional help from someone who knows about this shit might be better help.